Never been scared shitless to write ANYTHING before. Never. Pretty damn fearless when it comes to the writing stuff.
But now that's changed a bit. And I guess that's great. Right? Being terrified to write something? I'm not frightened of "it" per se...I'm scared that I will not be able to give it everything I want it to have.
Crazy, huh?
Considering I'll be the ONLY ONE who will be able to do that.
Still fucking terrified.
I spoke at the Oklahoma Library Association this last Wednesday. Man, I love speaking on panels about writing.
But when asked about the works I have in progress, I popped off immediately with about 10,000 words left in the C&S story. A third of the way through my Paranormal Erotic story. And then:
"Have you ever seen something so beautiful, you're afraid to touch it?"
That popped out of me.
And it was the perfect description of this book.
I am scared to death that I'll miss something important. Or I will not give it all the attention it needs.
In my heart of hearts...I don't believe either of those. I will sculpt the hell out of it until it's EXACTLY what I want.
But damn.
Really???
Daunting. Good damn word for what this one is. Because it's huge, my friends. HUGE.
So I simply need to calm my ass down and let the words come. They've not failed me before. They won't fail me now.
Onwards and upwards.
I hope.
Grins*
But now that's changed a bit. And I guess that's great. Right? Being terrified to write something? I'm not frightened of "it" per se...I'm scared that I will not be able to give it everything I want it to have.
Crazy, huh?
Considering I'll be the ONLY ONE who will be able to do that.
Still fucking terrified.
I spoke at the Oklahoma Library Association this last Wednesday. Man, I love speaking on panels about writing.
But when asked about the works I have in progress, I popped off immediately with about 10,000 words left in the C&S story. A third of the way through my Paranormal Erotic story. And then:
"Have you ever seen something so beautiful, you're afraid to touch it?"
That popped out of me.
And it was the perfect description of this book.
I am scared to death that I'll miss something important. Or I will not give it all the attention it needs.
In my heart of hearts...I don't believe either of those. I will sculpt the hell out of it until it's EXACTLY what I want.
But damn.
Really???
Daunting. Good damn word for what this one is. Because it's huge, my friends. HUGE.
So I simply need to calm my ass down and let the words come. They've not failed me before. They won't fail me now.
Onwards and upwards.
I hope.
Grins*
